[All told, there's only been one execution that he hasn't stood and watched to completion. It's something of — not a matter of pride, obviously, but at least of a sort of twisted honor. You don't get the right to avert your eyes from the consequences of your choices. You don't get to spare yourself the realities of the things you've done.
It makes it all the worse to have to listen to Filbo in a moment like this — not resisting, not lashing out, not making one last stand for the sake of going out with a scream instead of a whimper. Filbo, proving himself in this strange way the best of all of them, holding on to kindness and self-doubt and a strange sort of mercy to the last.
And in a way he's almost glad it's Ryn on the stage doing this. Because whatever toll it might take on Ryn, there will be an after for him, where whatever unfolds here can be mended.
There isn't going to be an after for Filbo at the end of this. And Ryn will do — he'll do what a healer should do. He'll do it right. He'll make the right choice.
He trusts in that more than he'd trust even himself, at this point.]
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It makes it all the worse to have to listen to Filbo in a moment like this — not resisting, not lashing out, not making one last stand for the sake of going out with a scream instead of a whimper. Filbo, proving himself in this strange way the best of all of them, holding on to kindness and self-doubt and a strange sort of mercy to the last.
And in a way he's almost glad it's Ryn on the stage doing this. Because whatever toll it might take on Ryn, there will be an after for him, where whatever unfolds here can be mended.
There isn't going to be an after for Filbo at the end of this. And Ryn will do — he'll do what a healer should do. He'll do it right. He'll make the right choice.
He trusts in that more than he'd trust even himself, at this point.]